"When it seems like things are only getting better..."

You know, sometimes life can really confuse you.

One second you can have a complete picture of your life, then the next second you can say, "But what if I..."

That's what is going on with me right now.

I am still about 95% sure I am going to North Georgia, despite various music professors from Young Harris coming up to me and asking me where I am in my decisions.

What ever.

I hate letting people down, but my heart isn't there.

This may sound odd, but it's almost like God is directly telling me where to go and what to do in my life.

And right now He's saying, "Don't get involved with anyone romantically. There is someone waiting for you and you aren't going to find him here. Follow where I am leading you."

So I am doing just that, and I am completely happy and content with this.

Also, I feel like He is leading me somewhere where I can voice my opinions and where other people can here what I need to say. 

Which is why I am thinking about changing my major to Music and Communications so I can work in radio or journalism.

It's still just a thought, but I feel pulled toward it more than I have been pulled toward anything else, and anyone who knows me or has known how long I have stuck with my last career idea knows that is a BIG pull.

But this is what I really think I need to do in my life. I am following what I feel God is saying.

Till next time.

Ash

P.S.- I don't care if you think I'm wacko for saying I hear God. I know I'm not crazy...

Plus it's not like I'm having apparitions, it's just what I'm hearing through prayer. Maybe if more people would try it they could have the same feeling and sensation as me...

P.P.S- It's a wonderful feeling :]